WHEN YOU LET LUST MAKE YOU COMMIT A SIN...

I AM HERE TO PLACE ON THE RECORD ALL OF THE ABUSES THAT THIS COUPLE HAS INTENTIONALLY CAUSED TO ME AND TO MY SPIRITUAL DESTINY - THIS IS A CASE OF 2 PEOPLE WHO HAD BEEN COMMITTING SEXUAL ACTS PRIOR TO EVER BEING CALLED OUT FOR DOING THESE THINGS !

NOW THIS LOW LIFE THIEVING CON ARTIST WOMAN HAS ONCE AGAIN BEEN USING HER JEZEBEL SELF TO COMMITT MORE SINS SLEEPING WITH THE ATTORNEY IN THIS CASE TO GET HIM TO SUPPORT HER GREED AND TO HELP COVER UP HER CRIMES WHICH ARE NUMEROUS ! AS SHE KILLED B ISRAEL (HE'S NOW BEEN CLONED ) TO STEAL ALL OF THE MONEY AND ESCAPE JAIL!

FOR AND ON THE RECORD ! THERE HAS BEEN A SERIOUS CRIME OF MURDER IN THIS CASE AND THERE IS NOW A COVER-UP TO HIDE THESE FACTS - THIS WOMAN HAS BEEN SEXING THE ATTORNEY AND HAS ALSO BEEN USING WITCHCRAFT TO CAUSE HARM AND DAMAGE TO ME PHYSICALLY - THIS CORRUPT LIAR HAS ALSO BEEN MAKING NUMEROUS FALSE CLAIMS AGAINST ME TO FURTHER HER /HIS SINS/CRIMES OF INTENTIONALLY COMING AFTER MY LIFE PARTNER TO POLUTE HIS SOUL AND TO LIE AND ACT AS IF THEY WERE NOT ROMANTICLY INVOLVED EVEN BEFORE ALL OF THE OTHER CRIME 'S TOOK PLACE - WE ARE NOW SO INTRENCHED WITH NEGATIVE HOSTILE ABUSES OF BOUNDRIES HACKING INTO BANK ACCOUNTS , SETTING UP FRAUDULENT ACCOUNTS IN MY NAME TO FUNNEL FUNDS THAT ARE IN MY NAME INTO ACCOUNTS THAT THEY THEMSELVES CONTROL BY MAKING SLANDEROUS AND FALSE CLAIMS IN COURT ABOUT ME ( A COURT THAT I WAS INTENTIONALLY PREVENTED FROM RECIEVING ANY NOTICES FROM ) THIS WAS DONE SO THAT THEY COULD SAY WHATEVER THEY COULD TO SOIL MY GOOD NAME AND TO DEFRAUD NOT ONLY THE COURT , BUT ALSO ME OUT OF FUNDS AND ASSETS THAT THEY HAD NO RIGHT TO EVEN TOUCH

1. I NEVER RECIEVED ANY OF THE THINGS THAT WERE SUPPOSED TO BE GIVEN TO ME FROM THIS LEGAL PROCESS - THEY LIED AND MADE IT APPEAR THAT THEY WERE DOING WHAT THEY WERE ORDERED TO PAY ME YET THEY LIED AND SPENT IT ON THEMSELVES - BREACHING THE FEDUCIARY DUTY TO CARRY OUT THE DUTY OF A POA -

2. B.ISRAEL WAS MY NOT MY ACTUAL HUSBAND ON THE RECORD BUT HE HAD BEEN ACTING AS MY CAREGIVER - WHICH IS YET ANOTHER BREACH OF HIS DUTY DUE TO THE FACT THAT HE TOLD LIES TO COVER UP THE FACT THAT HE HAD BEEN INTENTIONALLY MISLEADING ME INTO BELIEVING THAT WE WOULD BE MARRIED IN THE VERY NEAR FUTURE , YET HE WAS TEMPTED BY THE LUST OF A CON -WOMAN WHO SEDUCED HIM INTO BECOMING SEXUALLY INVOLVED WITH HER BY TELLING HIM LIES ABOUT ME THAT CAUSED HIM TO BECOME ENRAGED AND FEEL JUSTIFIED IN DEFILING OUR COMMITMENTS TO ONE ANOTHER - IN SO DOING THIS FEMALE IS GUILTY OF INTENTIONALLY CAUSING THE DESTRUCTION OF A DIVINE UNION THAT THIS FEMALE KNEW GOOD AND WELL WAS IN FACT OUR DIVINE PREDESTINATION FROM THE MOST HIGH - SHE WANTED TO INTERFERE AND SHOW ME DISREGARD AS SHE WANTED TO BE SEEN AS MORE WORTHY THAN I . SHE WAS ALSO HELL-BENT ON COVETING THE FUNDS AND GIFTS THAT WERE MEANT FOR ME TO HAVE A BETTER QUALITY OF LIFE , YET THIS CRIMINAL HAD A WHOLE COMMUNITY READY TO ASSAULT ME AND TO TRY AND SLANDER MY NAME AND TO INTERFERE WITH MY STABILITY - THIS AMOUNTS TO A HATE CRIME UNDER TITLE 18 SEC 249 -

I HAVE BEEN LIVING AT A LEVEL LOWER THAN WHAT I SHOULD HAVE HAD TO LIVE DUE TO SOMEONE ELSE'S COVETING -LUST AND LACK OF SELF CONTROL TO NOT MAKE UP FALSE CLAIMS ABOUT ME TO GAIN AN INHERITANCE THAT THIS FRAUDULENT BAD ACTORS HAVE BRAZENLY STOLEN AND ARE NOW TRYING TO COME TO WHERE I RESIDE TO INTIMIDATE ME AS A WITNESS IN A CASE WHERE THERE ARE GUILTY OF PERJURY FRAUD AND WITHHOLDING MATERIAL INFORMATION - THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN EXPOSED WHICH IS THE FACT THAT ALOT OT THE SO CALLED WITNESSES AND OTHERS WHO HAVE DECIDED TO ASSAULT ME ON A REGULAR BASES , USE WITCHCRAFT TO HARM MY ABILITIES , LOOKS . MEMORY , TO DISTORT MY BODY , TO VIOLATE MY MIND WITH CONFUSION AND TO MAKE MY LIVING ENVIRONMENT AS HOSTILE AS I HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED IN MY 61 YEARS HERE ON EARTH -

THIS GROUP OF EXTREMISTS ARE RIGHT NOW HOVERING AROUND WHERE I SHOULD BE ABLE TO EXPECT A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF PRIVACY YET I AM NEVER ALLOWED DUE TO THESE DEMONS TRYING TO ACT AS IF THEY CAN PLAY GOD IN MY LIFE WHILE I HAVE NEVER SEEN ANY SIGN OF GODLYNESS EVER OME FROM ANY OF THEIR ABUSIVE ACTIONS AGAINST ME - WHICH IS A DAILEY OBSESSION FOR THIS FEMALE WHO HAS MY NAME COMING OUT OF HER MOUTH SO MUCH YOU'D ALMOST THINK THAT SHE WAS MY BIGGEST FAN !

THERE IS A COURT HEARING THAT THEY ARE TRYING TO INTIMIDATE ME INTO LYING FOR THEM SO THAT THEY WILL NOT BE FOUND GUILTY - I AM REFUSING TO PARTNER WITH THIS PLAN OR ANY OF THESE BAD ACTORS WHO ALL LACK INTEGRITY - I NEVER SIGNED A DEED TO A HOME IN FACT I HAVE BEEN FORCED BY THIS GROUP OF DOMESTIC TERRORISTS TO LIVE IN MY SMALL LOW-INCOME APT WHILE UNDER DURESS AND UNDER ATTACK BY THESE SAME THIEVES WHO NOW EXPECT ME TO LIE TO SAVE THEM YET THEY HAVE NEVER EVER SHOWED ME EVEN 1 SPECK OF RESPECT OF COMPASSION KNOWING FULL AND WELL THAT I WAS SUFFERING YET THINKING THAT IF THEY COULD KILL ME THEY'D HAVE ACCESS TO EVERYTHING THAT THEY KNEW THEY WERE COMMITTING FRAUD UPON THE TRUE HEIR TO AQUIRE - I AM PLACING ON THE RECORD THAT I HAVE NEVER EVEN BEEN TO THE HOME THAT IS ACTUALLY MINE NOW HAVE I EVER SIGNED ANY PAPERWORK OR WORKED WITH ANY LAWYER , CLERK JUDGE REALTOR OR INSURANCE AGENT AS THE OPPOSITION HAS AND HAS ALSO BEEN COMMITTING FRAUD WITHIN THESE SAME INDUSTRIES INCLUDING TH BANKING INDUSTRY , THE UNITED STATES POSTAL SERVICE . MY APARTMENT COMPLEX AND A MULTITUDE OF OTHER ASSERIES TO THEIR CRIMES WHO WENT AHEAD AND GRANTED THEM ACCES TO FUNDS , CARS , CLOTHES , VACATIONS BRIBES AND KICKBACKS PAID FOR WITH THE STOLEN FUNDS FROM ME A 61 YR OLD DISABLED WOMAN WHO HAPPENS TO BE 'BLACK" BY AMERICAN DIFFINITIONS - HOWEVER I DO HAVE ROYAL BLODD FROM A ENFIMOUS CHAIN OF ANCESTORS WHO HAVE APPOINTED ME AS THE ONE TO RECIEVE THE TOTAL AMOUNT OF INHERITANCE THAT HAS BEEN WITHHELD FOR HUDREDS OF UEARS S IS JUST NOW BEING DEMANDED TO BE GIVEN TO ME MONICA - A FOR WHOM IT WAS MEANT AND SHALL BE CLAIMED BY -I WILL NOT BE BULLIED DISRESPECTED OR MADE TO SUFFER FOR BEING IN THE POSITION THAT I AM AS THE HEIR TO THE THRONE THAT THIS FEMALE FELT SHE COULD OPENLY AND ILLEGALY COME AND BULLY ME OUT OF -

I AM HOLDING ALL OF THOSE INVOLVED UNDER SPIRITUAL JUDGEMENT FOR THE VIOLATIONS OF ME AS A SPIRITUALLY DIVINE AND FAVORED HEIR T STEP UP AND CLAIM THAT WHICH IS IN FACT MINE TO CLAIM - AND I AM ASKING THAT THE SPIRITUAL COUNSEL SEE THAT THESE BAD ACTORS BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE AND BE FORCED TO REPSIR THAT WHICH THEY INTENTIONALLY SOUGHT TO TEAR APART AND ILLEGALLY GAIN ACCESS TO - THESE BAD ACTORD ESPECIALLY SAID FEMALE WHO IS IRRASHINAL AND INSANLY AGGRESIVE TOWARDS ME SHOULD ALSO FACE A SIGNIFICANT AMOUNT OF TIME BEHIND BAR'S FOR HER NON STOP ABUSES ASSAULTS SLAMDER DEFAMTIONS AND FOR TRYING TO HAVE ME KILLED BY HIREING NUMEROUS HIT-MEN TO COME TO WHERE I LIVE AND ATTEMPT TO KILL ME SO THAT SHE COULD LIVE THE LIFE THAT SHE FELT SHE COULD STEAL FROM ME DUE TO HER JEALOUSY AND HER NEED TO TRY AND ONE -UP-ME AS IF SHE WERE ACTUALLY ON THE SAME LEVEL - WHICH HAS BEEN FOUND TO NOT BE TRUE AT ALL THAT'S WHY SHE HAS ALSO STOLEN MY ID AND HAS PRETENDED TO ME ME WHILE SHE'S IN PUBLIC - AND A PERSON CA NTRY TO IMPERSONATE ME BUT THE REAL TEST OF A PERSON'S SOUL IS TO NOT ACT OUT IN A VISCOUS JEAELOUS RAGE AGAINST SOMEONE WHOM HAS DONE TO YOU THE MOST DISPICABLE ACTIONS AND STILL I HAVE NOT TAKEN ANY PHYSICAL RECOURSE LIKE SHE AND SO MANY OF HER OTHER PARTNERS ALL HAVE - I WILL INSTEAD RELY ON THE FATHER TO DO HIS WILL UPON THESE LUSTFUL THIEVES WHO PLOTTED AGAINST ME TO COVER UP THEIR ONGOING SEXUAL MISCONDUCT THAT LEAD TO DEATHS AND CRIMES AGAINST ME AND HAVE PROFOUNDLY AFFECTED MY LIFE AND MY SPIRITUAL JOURNEY -

RESPECTFULLY MONICA ANDRES .AGENT AND RIGHTFUL - HEIR TO THE INHERITANCE

Financial crimes against me and my family

These desperate domestic terrorists and malicious thieves who not only have now been found to have stolen from me through my

inheritance my trust funds and numerous other ways but they have also been found to have stolen from my children and stole money that was earned from my daughter who lives with me and during covid we were in financial despair and at times had nothing to eat while they made false statements and filed frivolous claims to Federal agencies knowing that they were lies and not caring about the damages or even the waste of federal funds to investigate each fraudulent frivolous claim that this female with zero self control and even less respect for a woman's privacy sought to intentionally due as a chaos agent . this has now reached all time low with the admission of the financial distributions from our financial banks into their own and also the physical and brutal attacks that they regularly inflicted upon myself and my adult daughter who is my caregiver and the only one who has been responsible and credible enough to be able to manage my accounts - also He has never paid me any support for anything no food ,no bills ,no rent ,nothing just taking and then spending it on other females who have been so engaged In viscously stalking me and my daughter with the e illegal use of hidden cameras and listening to everything that we discuss thinking I guess that what they could hear or illegally record could be admissible when in fact it would not be at all but feeling as if it would be sbd that it would also somehow be enough to make the courts /jury feel some kinda -way and basically rule that they were acting in good faith while they opened my mail stole my ID impersonated me forged my signature after making fake claims of my incompetence and other medical issues that are actually determined to be part of my ADA disabling issues that are now being exploited and shared on the dark web along with naked pictures of me and also making fake profiles and sending text messages emails and IM to completely unknown individuals in my name in an attempt to defame my good character and be able to take from me as an elderly legal heir of an estate left to me and instead receive themselves funds that were never even meant for any of them so they decided to make up a false narrative of my life as if I were truly in the same dark deceitful energy as all of the paid witnesses who perjured themselves to collect ill-gotten gain from a disabled fully competent black - woman who just happens to be an investigative journalist ,a motivator and an innovative genius and healer to name just a few positive attributes but one thing that I am not is Incompetent lazy or a woman who has multiple partners- which they knew was a lie before it was maliciously spread when they had prior informed my ex that if he wanted to get ahead in life he'd have to turn his back on me first and then secretly marry or commit to someone who they agreed on for him someone who frankly should never have even been in my kings good energy . Note the coven has been relentless at coming to target me for sacrifice and death knowing that I was an earth angel and that I was also held in high honor but they were all together in trying to intentionally smear my good name at times calling me out of my name and doing spells to affect my looks my health my mental stability my kice life my success my heart my legs back etc they tried to completely tear me apart they have aggressively and knowingly tried to interfere with a divinely guided union between two people of the same race while telling him that I was not a good choice for their community values, but they were more than happy to work together to lie cheat and embezzle my funds my gifts and even the little bit of additional assistance that was actually my adult daughters But had absolutely nothing to do with my ex or his new side chick / Bonnie to his Clyde they did all of this to us out of their pure hatred envy jealousy Greed and revenge ! You're now just busted and discussed and this is the only song they are able to sing these days, "jailhouse Rock"

NOT ENOUGH BEING DONE TO THOSE WHO COME TO PLOT CHEAT AND STEAL

Absolutely ridiculous the amount of Gal that it takes for these thieves to continually come back to try and cause more damage to me even though they have been shown to have been lying this entire time and have actually been living in or colleting rent for a home that is actually not theirs to even be living in rent free - or collecting income that they should not have been given access to be collecting in the first place but if that wasn't insulting enough - then the fact that they have all been getting kick-backs and free-loading off of the same person who they have also been allowed to make defamatory statements about to local law enforcement officers , steal my mail to completely illegally withholding key material information that's pertaining me

I DON'T CARE WHO YOU THINK THAT YOU ARE - YOU WILL NOT VIOLATE ME IN MY OWN BED/BEDROOM - AND IF YOU THINK THAT YOU CAN COVER -UP YOUR ORGANIZED CRIME 'S AND YOUR DECEPTIVE AND INTENTIONAL DEFRAUDING THE COURT SYSTEM TO THEN STEAL MY INHERITANCE AND CLAIM IT AS YOUR OWN - YOU TOO WILL ALL BE BROUGHT TO JUSTICE FOR YOUR CRIMES - ONE THING THAT I CAN SAY IS THAT YOU NEED TO FINALLY TELL THE TRUTH AND ADMIT THAT IT TOOK AN ENTIRE COMMUNITY AND MANY OTHERS TO PROVE THAT 1 SO CALLED "INCOMPETENT " BLACK WOMAN IS A FORCE TO BE DEALT WITH! AND I AM STILL STANDING IN MY POWER WITH THE MOST HIGH AS MY GENERAL COUNSEL AND SENIOR ADVISOR - AND IF I WERE YOU I'D BE WORKING MY ASS -OFF TO TRY AND OFFER A SETTLEMENT SO THAT I WOULD NOT BE EXPOSED PUBLICLY FOR ALL OF THE BULLSHIT THAT'S ABOUT TO BE REVEALED ONCE THINGS GO DOWN AROUND HERE .... "IT'S GETTIN HOT IN HERE ... SO HOT ...

WHAT IS ORGANIZED STALKING?

https://timothysnow.medium.com/what-is-organized-stalking-dde5e55f9625

THERE ARE STILL DOMESTIC TERRORISTS /EXTREMIST'S WHO INSIST ON RETURNING TO WHERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE ABLE TO EXPECT A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF PRIVACY - WHICH IS OF COURSE IN MY BEDROOM AND THE BATHROOM - HOWEVER AS I HAVE SHARED WITH ALL OF YOU NUMEROUS TIME'S OVER THE PAST 2 1/2 YEAR'S SINCE I HAVE BEEN RESIDING HERE IN KING COUNTY WA - BUT NOW AS I RECOLECT THE CHAIN OF EVENT'S I AM BEING MADE FULLY AWARE OF YET ANOTHER ATTEMPT OF THIS WICKED - COVEN OF HOSTILE BITCHY JEALOUS WITCH /WARLOC CREATURE'S WHO LACK THE ABILITY TO HAVE COMPASSION AND IN FACT ARE HAPPY AS THEY WATCH ME SUFFER FROM THE DAMAGES THAT THEY JAVE KNOWINGLY AND INTENTIONALLY CONTIUED TO CAUSE , KNOWING THAT WE ARE ON OPPOSING ENDS OF A VISCOUS COURT PROCEEDING IN WHICH THE SAME WITCHES WHO ARE CONSTANTLY AND BRAZENLY DENYING ME MY RI GHT TO EXERCISE "MY FREE -WILL" IN MY OWN BEDROOM/BED AND DENY THEM THE ACCESS TO COME AND STAND OVER ME AND CAUSE AT THE LEAST - EMOTIONAL / SPIRITUAL AND FINANCAL HARDSHIPS LOSSES AND SETBACK'S THAT THEY ARE HAPPY ABOUT BECAUSE THEY ARE STILL IN THE PROCESS OF STEALING MONEY DESTROYING EVIDENCE AND TAMPERING WITH "ME" THE WITNESS /VICTIM/ PROTECTED VUNERABLE ALMOST 61 YEAR OLD TARGET OF ALL OF THEIR HATRED /MALICE / FALSE CLAIMS / SLANDER DEFAMATION OF MY GOOD CHARACTER AND THEIR MOTIVATION TO "WIN AT ALL COST'S" THEY HAVE ALSO ATTEMPTED TO SMEAR MY NAME ONLINE WITH MY CONGREGATION AND HAVE SHARED THE FACT THAT I HAVE HAD TO WATCH YOUTUBE AND THE TAROT CARD READER'S WHICH HAVE CONFIRMED WHAT I HAD ALREADY BEEN SHOWN OVER A YEAR AGO WHERE MY EX WHO WAS IN FACT BEING ABUSED BY THIS "STALKER" WHO HAD FIXED HER /HIS EYE'S ON MY NOW EX SPIRITUAL CONTERPART AND HAD DECIDED THAT SHE WANTED TO INFLICT OAIN SUFFERING AND AS MUCH PHYSICAL MENTAL EMOTIONAL FINANCIAL AND SPIRITAUL DISRTESS , TRAUMA LOSS AND INTENTIONAL INFLICTION OF EMOTIONAL DISTRESS -

CAUSE OF ACTION > MALISCOUS HARASSMENT - HATE CRIME WITH INTENTIONAL INFLICTION OF MENTAL DURESS - EMOTIONAL DISTRESS - FINANCIAL HARDSHIP AND DEPRIVATIONS OF MY RIGHT TO IMEDIATE RELIEF

It will always depend on the particular facts of the case. The jury will look at certain factors, including:
The parties’ relationship; THE MALE WAS MY LIFE PARTNER/CAREGIVER FOR MORE THAN 20 YEARS- WE HAD BEEN STRUGGLING SINCE I HAD NOTICED THAT I WAS BEING STALKED AND SEXUALLY EXPLOITED AND THEN RECORDED AND THESE RECORDINGS SHARED ON THE DARK WEB - THE NEW SEX PARTNER OF MY NOW EX LIFE PARTNER WAS INSANELY OBSESSED WITH CAUSING MAYHEM AND CHAOS IN MY/OUR LIVES THINKING THAT IT WAS ;"FUN TO WATCH ME SUFFER ' AND THEY HAD ALSO PLACED CAMERA'S IN BOTH MY BEDROOM AND THE BATHROOM WHERE THEY ALSO WATCHED ME BATH USE THE TOLILET ETC - EXTREMELY INTRUSIVE AND INTENTIONALLY DONE TO CASUSE ME TO FEEL ANXIETY , OVERWHELMED WITH GRIEF AND DEPRESSION WHICH THEY THEN WENT TO THE COURT WHILE ALSO BLOCKING MY ACCESS TO DEFEND MYSELF AND TO FIGHT FOR WHAT WAS RIGHTFULLY MINE - THEY USED MY FUNDS FOR ILLICIT FRIVOULS CRAP LIKE EXPENSIVE DESIGNER WEAR WHILE MALING COMMNETS ONLINE ABOUT MY SHABBY CLOTHING SINCE I COULD ANLY AFFORD TO SHOPAT THE GOODWILL - AND MY BASIC NEEDS WERE NOT BEING MET BUT RATHER BEING MADE TO BE THE BUTT OF ALL OF THEIR JOKES AND CONVERSATIONS AND GOSSIP - THIS HAS BEEN ONGOING HERE IN KING COUNTY SINCE JUNE 11TH 2021 - IT'S NOW OCT 2023 AND IT HAS YET TO CEASE AND THEY REFUSE TO LET ME JUST REST HEAL AND REGAIN WHAT THEY ARE AGGRESSIVELY TRYING TO JUSTIFY AS THERE RIGHT TO MY INHERITANCE THAT MY FAMILY LEFT FOR ME NOT FOR THEM -
Whether the actor abused their authority over the victim; YES THEY DID ABUSE THE AUTHORITY OVER ME - THEY REFUSED TO REVEAL IMPORTANT MATERIAL FACTS ABOUT THE CASE WHERE THEY WERE TRYING TO SUE ME FOR REPORTING THE ABUSES THAT THEY WERE IN FACT COMITTING AGAINST ME - WHILE ALSO BRIBING AND PAYING OTHERS TO ALSO COME TO THE COURTS AND MAKE MORE FALSE CLAIMS TO BOOST THEIR CHANCES OF SUCCESSFULLY RECIEVING THE FUNDS THAT WERE IN FACT MINE
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The actor’s rationale: THEIR RETIONALE WAS ALWAYS HASTILE NEGATIVE AND ABUSESIVE ALWAYS DONE WITH EXTREME MALICE TRYING TO MAKE IT APPEAR AS IF THEY WERE DOING NOTHING WRONG ILLEGAL OR FRAUDULENT WHICH IN FACT THEY WERE DOING ALL OF THESE THINGS AND SO MUCH MORE WITH EXTREMELY SEVER AND MALISCOUS INTENT

Whether the victim was particularly vulnerable; and
Whether the conduct was constant. YES IT WAS CONSTANT -DOING 'WITCHCRAFT " ON ME KNOWING THAT I HAD A DIVINE SPIRITUAL PATH AND JOURNEY THAT I ALOSNG WITH MY DIVINE CONTERPART WERE TO TAKE - BUT THE COVEN OF WITCHES WERE AGAINST OUR UNION AND SOUGHT TO INTENTIONALLY INTERFERE - COMING TO MY PLACE OF WORK WHICH IS MY APARTMENT AND ATTEMPTING TO CAUSE MENTAL ANGUISH THROUGH CONSTANT AND NON-STOP CASTING OF SPELLS CHANTS AND EVEN REGULARLY ALSO BRINGING OTHER SO CALLED PRACTICINERS TO COME TO TRY AND KILL ME SO THAT THEY COULD ESCAPE ARREST FOR THEIR ENGREGOUS ACTS OF MAIL THEFT MONEY LAUNDERING - GANG-STALKING AND THEN ALSO OBSTRUCTING MY RIGHT TO DUE PROCESS AND RECIEVING LEGAL NOTICES TO THE DATE AND TIME'S OF ALL OF THE HEARINGS IN WHICH THEY WERE AGGRESSIVELY SHEADING FALSE LIGHT AGAINST MY GOOD NAME AND MY GOOD CHARACTER - WHILE KNOWINGLY ALSO COPYING MY EVERY MOVE AND TRYING TO TAKE MY ATTRIBUTES AS THEIR OWN AND THEN INTENTIONALLY LIE CLAIMIMG THAT I HAD NO TALENT , WAS LAZY , WAS INCOMPETENT AND MENTALLY ILL - ALSO MAKING CLAIMS ON THE RECORD WHIE UNDER OATH IN AN ATTEMPT TO PREVENT ME FROM BEING ABLE TO HAVE A BETTER QUALITY OF LIFE AND ACTUALLY BE ABLE TO RECIEVE A SPEEDY REMEDY -AND MOVE AWAY TO A SAFER PLACE WHERE I COULD ACTUALLY BE ALLOWED TO HAVE PRIVACY AND HEAL SO THAT I COULD ALSO THEN CON TINUE TO HELP HEAL OTHER'S -

ALL OF MY FACTS AND CLAIMS FOR DAMAGES AND ADDICTIONAL CAUSES TO SUPPORT MY CLAIM FOR FRAUD , DEFAMATION, SLANDER, PERSOANL LOSSES FINANCIAL LOSSES AND LOSS OF CONSORDIUM WITH MY LIFE PARTNER WHO WAS BEING ABUSED AND DENIED HIS RIGHT TO LEAVE AND RETURN BACK TO ME THEN ALSO CONTROLLED THROUGH WITCHCRAFT CONFUSION SPELLS AND THEN ALSO TOLD LIES TO MAKE HIM ACT IRRITIC AND SPELLS TO MAKE HIM SEE ME AS A THREAT WHILE THEY ALSO DID SPELLS TO MAKE HIM FAVOR HER OVER HIS ACTUALLY DIVINE COUNTERPART IN WHICH SHE ALSO LIED TO HIM AND CLAIMED THAT IT WAS SHE WHO WAS HIS PARTNER KNOWING THAT WITH THE CONFUSION SPELLS BEING DONE THAT HE WOULD JUST FEEL A SENSE OF BEING STUCK DEPRESSED AND ANGRY WHICH SHE WOULD THEN BLAME ON ME - KNOWING THAT IT WAS IN FACT SHE AND THE OTHER COVEN MEMBERS WHO WERE ORCHESTRATING THIS CIRCUS - ALSO MAKING CLEAR THE OBSESSION WITH HER ATTEMPTS TO CAUSE MY DEATH SO THAT "SHE COULD REPLACE ME IN - OWN -LIFE "AS ME" AND GAIN CLOUT FROM MY SUCCESS WHICH SHE CLAIMS MADE HER SICK TO HER STOMACH AND THAT HER LIFE WOULD BE SO MUCH BETTER IF I WERE JUST DEAD AND THEN SHE COULD HAVE EVERYTHING THAT I HAD ACTUALLY WORKED HARD FOR BUT SHE HAD LIED AND SLANDERED MY GOOD NAME CLAIMING THAT I WAS LIKE HER AND HAD NO REAL TALENT OF LOOKS AND WAS A FAKE - ALL CLAIMS THAT I STATE CAN AND WILL WITH OUT A DOUBT BE PROVEN AT TRIAL

Defamation is a false statement made to a third party that causes damage to another person’s reputation. There are instances when filing a defamation lawsuit is not an option (for example, when the victim’s budget is limited or their specific case is not actionable). In those cases, the victim may be able to claim instead that the actor intentionally inflicted them with emotional distress with outrageous and extreme acts.
For instance, say a defendant published false and damaging information about you on the internet. Was that information so outrageous and extreme that society would consider it unacceptable? If so, you might be able to prove a case of IIED as an alternative to (or in addition to) a defamation claim.

Being within the perpetrator’s “zone of danger” (being at immediate risk of physical harm) may also cause severe enough emotional distress for a successful IIED claim.

Extreme and outrageous conduct is generally considered to be “so outrageous in character, and so extreme in degree, as to go beyond all possible bounds of decency, and to be regarded as atrocious, and utterly intolerable in a civilized community.” 3

Domestic abuse is a single act or a pattern of abusive and coercive behaviors, used by an individual to gain and/or maintain power and control over another individual in the context of an intimate/dating/familial relationship.

* *Definition created by Project Peace in Arlington, Virginia

Still being aggressively bullied or controlled by an Ex or even by one of his Ex's

In my case I feel that there is an Ex of my EX's who has become obsessed with me and my life not so much because of anything that is positive but mainly due to wanting to 1 -up me or to cause me to suffer due to her/him felling as if they can replace me perhaps due to my age ? my race? my disabilities ? my religious beliefs? or the way in which I make me income - which is one of the most interesting points being that my ex and I have never mingled our income's and he never paid any of my bills or any of my extra fee's say for instance my nails ? if I wanted my nails done I paid for them myself , same with anything that I wanted from food to clothing it was my money and so this is why I am unhinged that there is someone who is so completely hell-bent on causing me to suffer a loss of wages or a loss of my Federal benefits with this obsessive stalker even resorting to trying to get me locked up for no reason simply because I have been successful at what ever it is that I do to earn a living - So then this stalker decided to make up false statements about me to my Ex trying to portray me as something that I clearly am not - saying that I out in the streets when I do not even go out - saying that I am doing illicit sexual things just to tarnish my good image - which leads to to realize that this stalker has become so insanely jealous of me that they can not see straight and can not see that all of their over-obsessing about me and whatever I am doing to trying to block my success and also trying to impersonate me and also collect revenue that this person or person's had not in fact earned but rather they had stolen and attempted to make others feel as if it was their own work - while also telling my ex- and others that I had no talent - or that I was the one stalking her when in fact I was too busy doing the work that this person was in fact stealing from me - It became so severe that this person filed fake police reports to keep me and my Ex separated- I believe that this was done so that this obsessive controlling person could manage to manipulate the situation and could gain and control my ex's trust - with him feeling as if this person was a hard worker when in fact they had intentionally stalked our relationship to come between us so that this person could then feel as if they had somehow managed to steal some of my light as this also seems to be a large part of their obsession with me , the fact that other's like me seems to really make this person lose their mind and the fact that I am still doing what I do and this person is still trying to manipulate the situation while also hiding behind the scenes like the true coward that they are -

And let me make this clear - I do not care that he moved on ! What I am concerned with is the fact that the 2 of you , even though you have been boasting online and imitating me and making negative remarks about everything from my look's to the way in which I raise my adult children ( btw this person even tried to report me to CPS but my children are all over the age of 18 ) But they were trying to act as if they had it all going on together but in reality this person was really trying to get close enough to my ex to seduce him so that they could feel a sense of stabbing me in my heart - while this is a concern with someone being so maniacal that they would join our congregation and also stalk my social media profiles I am most concerned with the fact that this person has a grudge against me that borders on a domestic terrorist type of Mental- assessment with racially- or ethnically-motivated violent extremists committing the most violent incidents during the time period.I completely feel as if this is a case of racially or ethnically-motivated violence being conducted by those who are intent on preventing and breaking up my relationship with my Ex-lover with the focal point being the demise of the formation of a "strong Black - power- couple " as we had been coined - yet I am also often criticized as "not being Black enough" yet there is a definite under-tone of pure hatred that seeps from the pores of these attacks aimed at me and at my adult children and my immediate loved one's whom they have also attempted to get them all to mount up against me so that I would have no one to turn to for support of companionship - This is a sick individual who would take so much time to involve themselves in the attempt to completely destroy me because of a jealous feeling of thinking that I could easily be removed and replaced only to find out that not only am I alot tougher than I might appear on the surface level but I can also keep track of facts and represent my case in the court of law - Which for you is not going to go well because in your delusions of grandeur and 'one-up-manship " you left a long trail of finger prints accounts that connect you to me as my actual stalker and the person who is insanely obsessed with every aspect of my life and the fact that you'd file a restraining order against me - when I do not even know you yet you also routinely come to where I reside and hover over my bedroom and bathroom while you also hack into my files and attempt to share my files and my communications with who ever will listen - leads me and the other Federal Investigators to see that it is not me who is actually the threat to the community but that it is in fact "YOU " Who are the safety threat to not just this community but to the religious organizations and also to Senior housing , since you also have committed arson at least 1 time at the property where I reside - with all of this facing you , it's a wonder why you are still at it ! but also is proof to the magnitude that you are obviously willing to go just so that you can make yourself feel better - when in reality it takes a low-level woman/man to come after another Woman simply because her light was shining too bright in your eye's ! Get a life preferably your own and live it - because I will never be taken down by someone who is as cowardly as you or as obsessive about another's business when I have so many other things for you to clearly also be jealous about - wait for it - because it's coming - I have included some facts to read about domestic terrorism and coercive control - Please read and educate yourselves so that we can eradicate these bad actors away from our societies-

- https://www.gao.go What GAO Found According to U.S. law, domestic terrorism is generally defined as involving criminal acts dangerous to human life occurring in the U.S. that appear intended to coerce a civilian population or influence or affect the conduct of government. The Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI) tracks cases (which it defines as investigations and disruptions) consistent with its investigative mission. The Department of Homeland Security (DHS) Office of Intelligence and Analysis (I&A) tracks incidents which it defines attacks or plots, consistent with its definition of domestic terrorism. From fiscal years 2013 through 2021, the FBI’s number of open domestic terrorism-related cases grew by 357 percent from 1,981 to 9,049, From calendar year 2010 to 2021, I&A tracked a total of 231 domestic terrorism incidents, with racially- or ethnically-motivated violent extremists committing the most violent incidents during the time period.v/assets/gao-23-104720.pdf

shared from >https://dvnconnect.org/coercive-control-dvn/

Coercive control can show up in many ways and in a variety of relationships. The way it transpires is through different tactics a perpetrator will use. Some of these include:

Isolating partner from support system
Excessively monitoring partner’s activity throughout the day
Denying partner’s freedom and autonomy
Lying and gaslighting
Name-calling and putting down partner
Limiting partner’s access to money (even their own finances)
Reinforcing traditional gender roles
Turning partner’s own kids against them
Controlling aspects of partner’s health and body
Making jealous accusations
Regulating the sexual relationship decisions
Threatening partner’s pets and/or children (Healthline)

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NO YOU CAN NOT COME TO WHERE I LIVE TO TRY AND MAKE A CASE AGAINST ME

THIS IS TO THE FEMALE WHO HAD BEEN SECRETLY SLEEPING WITH MY EX AND THEN FELT THAT SHE COULD REPLACE ME IF ONLY SHE COULD FIND SOMETHING TO USE AGAINST ME THAT WOULD MAKE HER LOOK LIKE A "BETTER-CHOICE" AS HIS MATE - FIRST OF ALL ANY WOMAN WHO HAS TO BULLY ANOTHER WOMAN JUST TO TRY AND GET HIM TO BREAKUP SO THAT YOU CAN DO WITCHCRAFT ON HIM AND DO MIND- CONFUSION SPELLS TO MAKE HIM FORGET WHO HE TRULY WAS AND THEN LAY WITH YOU , SOMEONE WHO IS NOT EVEN PRACTICING ON THE SAME LEVEL AS HE HAS BEEN AND IN FACT YOU LACK MORAL 'S AND WERE JUST LOOKING FOR SOMEONE WHO YOU COULD LIVE OFF OF - AND MY MAN WAS YOUR CHOICE ? YOU NEED TO KNOW THAT YOU HAVE BEEN UNDER SURVEILLANCE AND THE FALSE CLAIMS THAT YOU HAVE FILED AGAINST ME TRYING TO GET ME ARRESTED SO THAT YO WOULD HAVE NO ONE ELSE TO COMPETE WITH - OR THE OTHER INSANE ILICIT ABUSIVE CONDUCT THAT YOU HAVE DONE NON STOP TO INTENTIONALLY TRY AND 1 UP ME - WELL YOU HAVE YET TO DO THAT AND IN FACT I CAN NOT STAND BY WHILE A DEMONIC CRAZY LAZY LOSER TRIES TO MANIPULATE THE TRUTH BY TELLING LIES ON THOSE WHO ARE NOT DOING TO YOU WHAT YOU HAVE IN FACT BEEN DOING TO ME - AND I AM ABOUT TO SHOW YOU EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENS TO PEOPLE LIKE YOU WHO COME AND MAKE UP LIES ABOUT PEOPLE WHO DO NOT EVEN KNOW YOU NOR WOULD I EVEN HAVE YOU IN MY CIRLCE OF FRIENDS ! INTEGRITY IS A MUST AND THEN YOU MUST ATTEMPT TO ACTUALLY HAVE A HEART THAT HELPS OTHERS RATHER THAN TRIES TO CAUSE HARM - AND THEN YOU LAUGH AT MY PAIN THAT YOU HAVE CAUSED AND YOU CALL ME THE "N" WORD WHICH PROVES THAT YOU HAVE ISSUES THAT ARE RACIALLY MOTIVATED NOT TO MENTION THAT YOU HAVE SOME JEALOUSY ISSUES TO DEAL WITH AS WELL , SO WORK ON YOURSELF AND BETTER YOURSELF . STOP TRYING TO MAKE ME LOOK BAD BECAUSE YOU ARE ONLY BRINGING MORE NEGATIVE ATTENTION TO YOURSELF AND YOUR OWN DARK WICKED PRESENCE THAT WILL EVENTUALLY END UP IN YOU BECOMING IMPRISONED- YOU NEED TO RETURN WHAT YOU STOLE STOP USING MY ID THAT YOU STOLE AS WELL STOP CALLING MY FAMILY TO ACT OUT WITH YOU STOP MAKING AND FILING FALSE CLAIMS AGAINST ME AND START LIVING THE LIFE THAT UP TO NOW YOU HAVE ONLY BEEN PRETENDING TO BE !

MALICIOUS HARASSMENT IN MY HOUSING

ABUSIVE BULLYING B YTHOSE WHO FEEL THAT THEY HAVE A RIGHT TO COME AND ABUSE ME WHILE I'M IN WHAT'S SUPPOSED TO BE THE PRIVACY OF MY OWN BEDROOM - BY THE SAME DOMESTIC TERRORISTS WHO HAVE BEEN DOING WITCHCRAFT TO INTENTIONALLY CAUSE ME TO FEEL PAIN AND TO CAUSE PERSONAL DEFICITS TO MY BODY - MY LOOKS MY CREATIVITY , MY HAIR MY WEIGHT ANYTHING THAT THESE LOWLIFE JEALOUS LOSERS FEEL THEY CAN AFFECT - WITH THEIR SO CALLED POWERS - THESE ABUSERS HAVE BEEN INTENTIONALLY TELLING LIE AFTER LIE ABOUT ME TO CONTINUE THIS MORE THAN 4 YEAR HATE-CRIME BASED ON MY ? RACE ? MY DISABILITIES ( AS THEY ARE OFTEN KNOWN TO SLIP TO LOWS OF CALLING OUT MY HARDSHIPS AS IF I AM HERE FOR THEM TO EXPLOIT AND TO USE AS THE BUTT OF MOST OF THIER JOKES ) HOWEVER AS I SIT HERE IN MY BED AND I FIND MYSELF ONCE AGAIN HAVING TO ACTIVELY YELL OUT FOR THEM TO "NOT" COME TO WHERE I RESIDE WITH THEIR ABBUSIVE HOSTILITY AND ABUSIVE ACTIONS THAT HAVE BEEN TARGETED TOWARDS ME - I AM FRICKING TIRED OF THESE BITCHES WHO ARE NOTHING MORE THAT BULLIES WHO ROAM IN PACKS AND LOOK FOR VUNERABLE IN MY CASE A WOMAN WHO AT ALMOST 61 YEARS OLD HAVE BEEN CONSTANTLY SHOWN NO RESPECT AND IN FACT ALOT OF THIS IS DUE TO THEIR OWN GREED AND LUST FOR Y FUNDS THAT THEY HAVE ALL BEEN TOLD EXIST AND ARE WAITING FOR ME SINCE THEY ARE ACTUALLY MINE AND NOT ANYONE ELSE'S YET THESE CONS SOMEHOW HAVE CONVINCED THEMSELVES THAT THEY CAN MANIPULATE THEM FROM ME SO THAT THEY CAN THEN CONTINUE TO STEAL THEM AND USE THEM FOR THEIR OWN PERSONAL USE - AND I WONDER WHERE DID THEY THINK THAT THIS WOULD ACTUALLY BE ABLE TO BE CARRIED OFF AT ? BECAUSE THEY HAVE CONTINUED TO COME AND TARGET ME BASED ON MY RACE I DO BELEIVE BECAUSE THEY HAD BEEN HEARD COMPLAINING ABOUT ME NOT LOOKING LIKE A PERSON WHO THE MOST HIGH WOULD HAVE SELLECTED AS A "CHOSEN ONE' YET THEY HAVE TRIED TO BEAT THIS OUT OF ME THINKING THAT WHAT / THEY HAD EARNED THE TITLE ? BECAUSE NO MATTER HOW THEY PERSONALLY FEEL ABOUT ME AND WHAT I HAVE BEEN PLACED HERE TO DO THEY WOULD HAVE TO ACTUALLY SPEAK TO THE MOST HIGH ABOUT THEIR ARGUMENT OF WHO SHOULD AND WHO SHOULD NOT HAVE A LABLE - IT'S FUTILE TO BE COMING AFTER ME WHICH IN AND OF IT'S SELF PROVES THE INTENTIONAL MALICE ( WHICH IS HATE) FOR ME SIMPLY BECAUSE THEY ARE TOO BUSY LOOKING AT MY OUTER SELF RATHER THAN BEING ABLE TO SEE WHAT IS ON THE INSIDE - BUT I HAVE ALSO BEEN TAUGHT THAT MOST PEOPE WHO RUN IN PACKS ARE SOMEWHAT MISSING THE PART THAT A NORMAL BEING WITH COMPASSION CAN FEEL FOR ANOTHER - I HAVE BEEN EDUCATING MYSELF ON THIS TYPE OF HATE GROUP AND I DID COME ACCROSS SOME INTERESTING INFO RELATING TO THE CHINESE REPUBLIC AND THEIR HARVESTING OF ENERGY FROM STARS - AND I DO FELL THAT THESE BAD ACTORS ARE CONNECTED WITH THE EFFORTS OF THE CHINESE TO CAUSE THOSE WHO ARE OBVIOCLY VIBRATING ON A MUCH HIGHER VIBRATION THAN THEY HAPPEN TO BE VIBING - BUT STILL THIS DOES NOT JUSTIFY THE ABUSIVE MISCONDUCT THAT HAS BEEN ALLOWED TO COME TO WHERE I AM ATTEMPTING TO REST HEAL AND SLEEP AND WHERE I HAVE ASKED NUMEROUS TIMES TO BE PROTECTED FROM AS I LIVE IN A FEDERAL TAX CREDIT HOUSING COMPLEX WHICH RECEIVES A TAX BREAK FROM THE IRS , YET THIS COMPLEX HAS FAILED TO DELIVER TO ME THE SAME FAIR TREATMENT THAT IS OFFERED TO OTHER TENANTS AND THIS BRINGS ME TO THE POINT OF RELIZATION THAT THIS COMPLEX REALLY NEEDS TO BE CHARGED WITH BEING LIABLE FOR THE DAMAGES THAT THEY HAVE KNOWN HAS BEEN OCCURING AGAINST ME FOR MORE THAN THE 2+ YEARS THAT I HAVE LIVED HERE IN SEATTLE WA -

https://www.seattle.gov/documents/Departments/CivilRights/FH-FAQ-Property_Owners_Managers.pdf Fair Housing Basics Section A: A Brief History The Civil Rights Act of 1866 guaranteed property rights to all, regardless of race. It was another hundred years before any real change in fair housing came about, with the passage of the federal Fair Housing Act – Title VIII of the Civil Rights Act of 1968, which added color, national origin, religion and sex. The Fair Housing Act represented the culmination of years of congressional consideration of housing discrimination legislation. Its legislative history spanned the urban riots of 1967, the release of the Report of the National Advisory Commission on Civil Disorders (the Kerner Commission Report, which concluded that America was moving toward two societies, separate and unequal), and the assassination of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. In 1988, President Reagan signed the Fair Housing Amendments Act, adding two more protected classes – families with children and people with disabilities, strengthening the administrative and judicial enforcement process for U.S. Department of Housing and Urban Development (HUD) complaints, and providing monetary penalties in cases where housing discrimination is found to have occurred. Section B: Fair Housing Laws 1. What fair housing laws apply in Washington state and who enforces them? The federal Fair Housing Act and its 1988 amendments (FHA) protect people from negative housing actions that occur because of their race, color, national origin, religion, sex, disability, or family status, which are “protected classes” under the FHA. State and local fair housing laws cover additional groups, such as marital status, sexual orientation, gender identity, age, 3. What housing actions are prohibited by fair housing laws? Fair housing laws prohibit the following housing actions:  Refusing to rent to someone or telling someone that a rental is not available even though it is, because of his or her protected class.  Discriminating  Failing to provide reasonable accommodations to a person with a disability, refusing to allow a disabled resident to make reasonable modifications, or failing to meet access requirements. [Examples: Refusing to let a blind resident live with a guide dog or not permitting a disabled person to install bathroom grab bars. Having an on-site leasing office that is inaccessible.]  Enforcing a neutral rule or policy that has a disproportionately adverse effect on a protected class, 3  Retaliating against a resident or applicant because he or she has asserted fair housing rights or has been a witness in a fair housing investigation. [Examples: Refusing to make prompt repairs because a resident filed a fair housing complaint. Evicting a resident because he was a witness in a civil rights investigation.] This applies for informal verbal complaints to management as well as formal discrimination cases filed with a civil rights agency. Even though the original allegation might turn out to be unfounded, if a housing provider takes retaliatory action, a retaliation complaint can be supported. [Example: A resident complains of racial harassment. A week later, the manager issues her a parking violation notice, but does not give notices to other residents for the same offense. The resident files a harassment and retaliation complaint. The civil rights office finds no evidence of harassment; however, the investigation shows that the manager retaliated against the resident for the harassment complaint by issuing the parking notice.]

MY "MAN' WANTED ME TO COMPETE WITH HIS SIDE CHICK

THIS MAN HAS DONE MORE MESSED UP CRAP TO TRY AND RUIN MY LIFE THAT I FEEL THAT THERE MUST BE JUSTICE DONE TO REGAIN MY PEACE OF MIND MY DIGNITY AND MY RESPECT -

FACT- I HAVE BEEN STALKED FOR OVER 4 YEARS - I HAVE BEEN SHOWN THAT THESE EVENTS OF BEING ABUSED FALSELY ACCUSED , LIED TO AND LIED ABOUT AND DOING DEMONIC THINGS BEHIND MY BACK WERE ALL ASSOCIATED TO THE SAME GROUP OF PEOPLE , PEOPLE WHO WERE ALL INVOLVED WITH MY EX .

HE BECAME UPSET WHEN HE COULD NOT GET MY DEBIT CARD AS I WAS HEADING TO SURGERY THIS WAS THE FIRST THING THAT MADE THIS MAN THAT I HAD BEEN WITH FOR 20 YEARS TURN AGAINST ME AND TRY TO MAKE IT APPEAR AS IF I WAS A BAD PERSON , WHILE ALSO DOING THINGS THAT WOULD HARM ME AND MAKE ME LASH OUT IN PAIN . THIS MAN HAS CHEATED ON ME WHILE ALSO CLAIMING TO BE A MAN OF GOD . HE IN FACT HAD BEEN SNEAKING AROUND WITH A FEMALE ? WHO HE HAD MET WHILE DOING UBER-EATS AND HE HAD STARTED A SEXUAL AFFAIR TELLING HER THAT HE AND I WERE GETTING A DIVORCE BUT IN REALITY HE HAD NEVER DONE ANYTHING FOR ME WHEN IT COMES TO WHAT A MAN IS SUPPOSED TO DO WHEN HE REALLY IS IN A MARRIAGE - HE DID NOT PAY MY BILLS , I PAID MY OWN AND OFTEN HAD TO HELP HIM WITH HIS. HE DID NOT PROTECT ME , AND AS I HAVE BEEN EXPERIENCING LATELY WOULD JUST GAS-LIGHT ME ABOUT ME "NOT BEING IMPORTANT ENOUGH TO BE STALKED " HE WOULD ALSO TELL ME THAT "I WAS NOT BLACK ENOUGH" AS IF ME BEING MORE BLACK WOULD SOMEHOW IMPROVE HIS AFFECTION FOR ME . HE RARELY IF EVER EVEN SAID ANYTHING POSITIVE TOWARDS ME AND WOULD BUILD UP OTHER FEMALES IN FRONT OF ME AND WOULD THEN MAKE A DEROGATORY STATEMENT ABOUT MY LACK OF CONFIDENCE . HE HAS ALSO HAD ONE OF HIS SO CALLED ASSISTANTS TO COME AND HOVER OVER ME IN MY APARTMENT COMPLEX TO RECORD ME ILLEGALLY SO THAT THEY WOULD HAVE AN UNFAIR ADVANTAGE SHOULD I EVER DECIDE TO TAKE ANY TYPE OF LEGAL ACTION FOR ALL OF THE MESS THAT HE HAS CONSTANTLY BROUGHT TO MY LIFE .

HE CONSTANTLY BERATED MY LOOKS MY ABILITIES AND MY SHYNESS AROUND OTHERS WHOM I DID NOT KNOW . HE WOULD COMPARE ME TO THE WOMEN WHO HE SAW ON T.V AS IF I CARED OR WANTED TO LOOK LIKE THEM . OFTEN MAKING COMMENTS ABOUT HOW I SHOULD DO THIS OR THAT TO LOOK MORE LIKE SOMEONE ELSE -

NOW MIND YOU , I HAD MET THIS MAN SHORTLY AFTER THE DEATH OF MY LATE HUSBAND WHO AS IT TURNS OUT HAD PLAYED BASKETBALL WITH MY NOW EX - MAN . I WASN'T LOOKING FOR A HUSBAND BECAUSE MY HUSBAND HAD PLACED A CLAUSE IN MY TRUST THAT SAID THAT I COULD NOT RE-MARRY FOR 10 YEARS (I THINK HE WAS FEELING THAT I WOULD ATTRACK ALOT OF GOLD-DIGGING TYPE OF MEN ? ) BUT THIS FACTOR ONLY SEEMED TO EXCITE MY NEW ROMANTIC PARTNER AS I REALIZE NOW THAT IT WAS ACTUALLY A PERFECT ESCAPE FOR HIM , AS I HAD MONEY A HOME , I WAS FUN TO BE WITH AND I COULDN'T GET MARRIED DUE TO THE CLAUSE , HOW MUCH BETTER COULD IT GET ? RIGHT ?

AS I REFLECT NOW HOWEVER I THINK THAT THIS IS WHERE MY RELATIONSHIP WITH THIS MAN WAS PROBABLY NOT MEANT TO BE ANYTHING MORE THAN A ROMANCE AND A PARTNER TO GO PLACES AND TO SPEND TIME WITH - WELL AT LEAST THIS IS HOW WE SEEMED TO MAKE TO 20 YEARS LATER AND WE STILL HAD NOT MADE OUR love A REALITY AND THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO SPEAK ON .

WHEN A MAN THINKS THAT HE HAS A WOMAN SO HEAD-OVER-HEALS IN LOVE WITH HIM HE WILL START TO DEVALUE YOU - I CAN SPEAK ON THIS MATTER BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT I NOW REALIZE THAT I HAD BECOME FOR ALL OF THOSE YEARS -A WOMAN WHO EVEN THOUGH I WASN'T REALLY GETTING MY NEEDS MET OR BEING LOVED AND RESPECTED THE WAY IN WHICH I NOW KNOW THAT I DESERVE TO BE . I STILL SMILED DIDN'T ARGUE BACK , AND WOULD TRY AND SATISFY A MAN WHO SHOWED ME BY HIS WORDS ACTIONS AND LACK OF COMPASSION THAT "I WAS ALRIGHT FOR NOW " BECAUSE HE DIDN'T REALLY HAVE ANYTHING ELSE GOING ON AND IT ALLOWED HIM TIME TO WORK ON HIS-SELF - NEVER THINKING THAT WHAT HE WAS REALLY DOING WAS LIVING A LIFE THAT WITH ME WHILE HE WAS PLANNING A BETTER LIFE WITH SOMEONE ELSE .

NOW THAT THE STING OF THIS REFLEXION HAS SOMEWHAT STOPPED PENETRATING MY HEART I FINALLY FEELS AS IF I AM ABLE TO LOOK AT MYSELF AND TAKE ACCOUNTABILITY FOR SOME OF WHAT I HAVE EXPERIENCED , BEING FRESHLY WIDOWED DIDN'T HELP , IN HINDSIGHT I REALLY WAS NOT READY FOR ANYBODY TO JUST COME IN TO MY LIFE , MOVE IN AND BASICALLY BECOME MY HUSBAND .... BUT NOT HAVE TO TAKE ON ANY OF THE RESPONSIBILITIES OF ACTUALLY BEING MY A HUSBAND - BUT IN HIS DEFENSE HE WAS A GOOD HELPMATE WHEN IT CAME TO GETTING ME TO MY DR. APPOINTMENTS AS I WAS EXTREMELY ILL WHEN WE MET WAY BACK THEN AND I KNOW THAT AS HE WOULD OFTEN REMIND ME " SO YOU THINK THAT I WANTED TO END UP WITH A DISABLED WOMAN WITH 4 KIDS? "

WHILE ALSO REMINDING ME ABOUT ALL OF THE OTHER WOMEN WHO "HE COULD HAVE HAD "AND INSTEAD HE CHOSE ME " IT BEGAN TO TAKE A TOLL ON ME EVEN THOUGH AT THE TIME I JUST CHALKED IT UP TO JUST HIM BEING UPSET OVER WHATEVER IT WAS THAT ALWAYS HAD HIM READY TO LASH OUT IN HIS UNSATISFYING WAY .

I ALSO REALIZE THAT I HAD SOMEHOW LOST MY SELF WHILE TRYING TOO HARD TO HELP HIM FIND HIMSELF I HAD LOST ME .

SO NOW AS I AM ONCE AGAIN SINGLE AFTER FIRST LOSING MY ACTUAL HUSBAND THAT I WAS ACTUALLY MARRIED TO, NOT JUST WHEN IT COMES TO THE BENEFITS THAT COME WITH IT , BUT ALSO IN THE APPRECIATION AND CARING THAT IT COMES WITH BEING MARRIED AS WELL .

I FEEL AS IF I NEVER REALLY GOT TO BE "SINGLE' AND ALMOST FEEL AS IF I MIGHT JUST WANT TO TAKE MY TIME , GET OUT AND JUST ENJOY WHO I AM , WHILE LETTING OTHERS GET TO FEEL MY VIBE AND GET TO KNOW ME AS WELL .

AND I ALSO WANT TO KIND OF GIVE MYSELF A LITTLE PAT-ON THE -BACK FOR BEING RESILIENT ENOUGH TO BE ABLE TO LOOK AT ALL OF THIS IN A POSITIVE WAY RATHER THAN IN AN ANGRY COLD RESENTFUL WAY THAT MANY EX 'S OFTEN DISPLAY THEMSELVES AS, AFTER BEING TIED TO A MAN WHO WOULD ACTUALLY THINK THAT HE COULD HAVE YOU COMPETE WITH A SIDE CHICK - FOR A ROLE THAT YOU HAD ALREADY HAD FOR FAR TOO LONG IN THE FIRST PLACE . AND TRUTH BE TOLD HE HAD BEEN JUST LOOKING FOR A WAY TO MAKE YOU FEEL LESS OF OR TO PUT IT IN YOUR FACE THAT HE HAD ACTUALLY ALREADY MOVED ON , ALL THAT HE WAN WAITING FOR WAS FOR YOU TO FIND OUT SO THAT THEY COULD START TO "BOTH' NOW LIVE OFF OF YOU AND YOUR SUCCESS WHICH HE HAD TRIED SO HARD TO MAKE YOU FEEL AS IF YOU'D NEVER BE .....

THIS IS MY PERSONAL WRITING - AND MY PERSONAL LIFE STORY - THERE IS ANOTHER FEMALE WHOM MY EX HAS BEEN ASSOCIATED WITH - I BELIEVE THAT THEY MAY HAVE MARRIED ? BUT DI NOT BE CONVIENCED THAT THEY ARE IN FACT ON THE UP AND UP BECAUSE THEY STILL USE ME TO FACILITATE THEIR LIFE AND OFTEN STEAL MY WORK OR MY WRITING AND PUT IT ON HER SITE WHILE ALSO BLOCKING MY ACCESS TO SEE AND REPORT IT - SO IF THERE IS ANYINE WHO SEE'S MY WORK OR MY PICTURES ETC ANYWHERE ELSE PLEASE REPORT IT TO LAW ENFORCEMENT FOR ME - I WOUD REALLY APPRECIATE IT - AS I AM JUST 1 PERSON TRYING TO FIGHT AGAINST WAY TOO MANY PEOPLE SIMPLY FOR BEING WAY TOO NICE TO THE WRONG PERSON PERHAPS OR FOR WALKING AWAY FROM A SITUATION THAT I REALLY SHOULD HAVE WALKED AWAY FROM 20 YEARS AGO .

BE BLESSED EVERYONE AND REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE, IF YOU FEEL THAT YOU ARE NOT BEING SHOWN THE RESPECT THAT YOU KNOW THAT YOU DESERVE PLEASE WALK AWAY AND LOVE ON YOURSELF BECAUSE YOU CAN NEVER GET TIME BACK THAT YOU WASTED ON NOT LEAVING WHEN YOU SHOULD HAVE . PEACE TO YOU ALL -

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